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1:46 pm
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Name (First Only.): Megan
Age: 31
Country: USA
When did you first begin using meth?: 2002
When did you quit using meth?: 2005
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: jail, lost my house, husband, kids, the things I was willing to do for drugs, dropped out of school.
What triggers you?: seeing anyone that i know uses or used to use, certain songs, stress.
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: no, and i don't like twelve step programs.
Who do you mainly go to for support?: the internet , and my husband
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: i smoked two packs a day for the first eight wees i was sober.
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| Monday, April 21st, 2008
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8:40 pm - what are you grateful for?
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Also called a gratitude list
-i'm grateful for my health
-my family
-my new car
-i'm grateful that i don't have to go sit in parking lots like a damn sitting duck waiting for either my dealer or a cop
-i'm grateful that i have made good honest friends that i can trust... trust, what's that?
-i'm grateful that i'm not obsessed with a pipe anymore
-i'm grateful that i'm not in jail
-i'm grateful that i am me and not my friends who are still stuck and don't even think about quitting
-i'm grateful for the fact that i can go and do things without worrying about coming down
-i'm very grateful to have money spent on clothes and shoes instead of dope
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| Sunday, April 20th, 2008
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10:12 am
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Name (First Only.): Jamie
Age: 22
Country: united states
When did you first begin using meth?: 4 years ago
When did you quit using meth?: 6 and half months ago
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: i couldn't use it without also selling it, so i was robbed ten times, three at gun point. i got physically sick, ear infections, teeth falling out, boils under my arms, infected pimples, hair falling out, horrible tooth pains, all my 'friends' stole from me, were jealous of me, i had no family
What triggers you?: not much anymore, but i guess it would be any contact with old friends and seeing pictures or movies of people smoking
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: i actually go to AA meetings just about every day because the crystal meth anonymous meetings are uncomfortable for me... i dunno why
Who do you mainly go to for support?: my mom
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: i had to move away from tucson arizona where i lived for the past 7 years to douglasville ga where i knew no one, only family... slept for two weeks, cried every time i woke up, and focused on getting my coffee and cigarette fix as a sort of new addiction to be grateful for.. lol
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| Friday, April 18th, 2008
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12:47 am - Need for support!
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| Tuesday, February 19th, 2008
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7:09 pm - Relapse
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R elapsed after 8 months clean.. it took me to some pretty nasty places again.. very dark indeed.. I have two days clean ..this is not easy at all.. So scared that it will destroy me if I do not get away again... This drug consumes you, no other way to put it.
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| Wednesday, January 30th, 2008
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2:45 am
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Thanks to everyone who either left a comment in response to my last post or added me as a friend!
I recently started blogging with hubpages, I was hoping someone could check out my articles.
If your interested, here is the link.
http://hubpages.com/profile/DharmaPunk
Thanks again!
I appreciate all support and feedback.
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| Tuesday, January 29th, 2008
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12:33 am
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Hello to everyone!
I recently joined this group in addition to recently joining livejournal.
Just wanted to say hello. I have yet to write my first entry, but feel free to add me as a friend.
Look foward to hearing from all of you!
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| Friday, January 25th, 2008
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3:38 pm - My Story...
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Name (First Only.): Rob
Age: 32
Country: USA..But currently live in Nicaragua
When did you first begin using meth?: Febuary 2006
When did you quit using meth?: june 2007
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: losing job, becoming homeless, losing friends, heart attack, stroke, seizure, teeth loss, made depression worse, paranoid feelings, unsafe sex, feeling like I was losing my mind..long term heart lung problems.
What triggers you?: porn, Gay sex (I am bi but connect meth use with gay sex) , baggies, straws, video/photos of meth and people using meth, being depressed and not knowing how I feel, old places that I used...boredom. Alcohol...
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? None at moment.. Live in 3rd world (none available)
Who do you mainly go to for support?: Email sober friends, online support groups..
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: I struggle still... cannot seem to let go of the "love affair2 with meth that my brain still clings to... Rehab did not work for me but maybe because I was not ready for it to work...
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| Friday, August 17th, 2007
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7:21 pm
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Name (First Only.): mary.
Age: 17
Country: america.
When did you first begin using meth?: right after i turned 13.
When did you quit using meth?: 2 months ago.
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: bankrupting my family from stealing and being put in rehab so many fucking times, i lost the love of my life, got a heart infection from shooting it.
What triggers you?: food, big groups of people, glowies.
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: i got out of a year long rehab in june, and imediatly relapsed. in that program we used NA, but it wasn't my thing.
Who do you mainly go to for support?: my ex girlfriend.
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: tylonal PM, baths, crying. i slept for four straight days and then attempted suicide and ended up in a coma.
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| Monday, May 21st, 2007
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1:26 am
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Name (First Only.): Chris
Age: 25
Country: USA
When did you first begin using meth?: July 31, 2006 (Everyday, and I was using 1g+ a day for the last two weeks)
When did you quit using meth?: Mothers Day (May 13, 2007)
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: Everything I did was based around speed. I almost lost my job, house, and girlfriend. I lost many of my good friends, and everyone in town was starting to talk...... everyone knew what was going on.
What triggers you?: Nothing, yet. I don't think I am going to have any problems with relapse.
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: Nope. I like to accomplish things on my own. I can do this alone,
Who do you mainly go to for support?: Myself, my girlfriend, my dog and cats. Mainly, I go to my backyard (the beach and the Gulf of Mexico).
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: Five days of sleep, lots of food and cranberry juice, lots and lots of chocolate. 5-HTP pills are the shit!!!! If you're trying to quit meth, get some 5-HTP, they really work.
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current mood: happy
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| Tuesday, May 1st, 2007
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11:04 am - I'm still alive!
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Ten years ago I kicked speed for the last time. It took many tries, but I finally did it, and did it for good.
Yesterday at dinner, I was drinking a cup of tea when I got a completely spontaneous nosebleed. It reminded me of the damage that was done while I was a slave to the drug. I survived, but I won't ever forget.
May you all find the strength to overcome this monster. Peace.
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| Sunday, September 10th, 2006
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9:27 pm
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I know this community is kind of dead, but whatever.
Name (First Only.): Gigi
Age: 15
Country: USA
When did you first begin using meth?: Two years ago
When did you quit using meth?: Three weeks ago
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: Moods were seriously fucked up, I'd put myself in very not cool situation, 5-0 knew me before I started but I became their favorite target, was sent to juvenal hall several times over it, and I'm white and thought I had "flow," plus my brain is pretty fried.
What triggers you?: Waking up, pretty much. Seeing a needle, seeing any sort of pipe, being around people who even used to use.
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: DAAC (Drug Abuse Alternative Center), I go to NA some times, go to a school for drug addicts, probation helps somewhat with it.
Who do you mainly go to for support?: No one, really. Meth is so nonshalont that if I try it's almost embarassing.
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: I try to let it ride. I get bugs very bad, but I'm used to them so when they come I usually try and divert my attention to something else.
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| Friday, July 28th, 2006
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5:51 pm - What it doooooo!
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Name (First Only.): Caitlyn
Age: 18
Country: United States-California-San Jose
When did you first begin using meth?: Feb 2005
When did you quit using meth?: June 2005
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: I was pretty much... Evil.. and not who i was raised to be. I had shut all my friends out to be with drug users. My family couldn't look me in the face... I dropped out of school... lost my job.. I lost more weight then i should
What triggers you?: Music that i used to listen to back then, Looking at my old journals, walking into smoke shops and seeing "OIL BURNERS"(wtf), talking about my old days and ways..Seeing other people tweaking.. tweaked out..Feeling fat... being fat...
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: I used to go to CMA but i dont any longer because the meetings here are when i am working.
Who do you mainly go to for support?: My family and friends.
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: Oh i dont know.. I suppose i just think about what will happend if i start using again.. I will probably drop out of college and lose my job, and end up like every other tweaker out there.. and i am just not satisfied with that.
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| Thursday, May 11th, 2006
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4:58 pm
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Name (First Only.): Jenna
Age:18
Country:usa
When did you first begin using meth?:sometime in 2003
When did you quit using meth?:october 26 2005
What were the negative effects of meth for you?:paranoia, loss of friends, loss of interest in anything other than using, loss of job, getting arrested for possession
What triggers you?:thinking too much about it, remembering the "good" times, seeing people i used to use with buy from or sell too, weight gain, stressful situations, high work load
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain:i commenced from treatment about 3 months ago and have tried to attend meetings but it's difficult because i don't believe in a higher power
Who do you mainly go to for support?:my addictions counselor or other recovering addicts
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?:i slept for about a week straight getting up only to eat, drink, then throw everything up
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| Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
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2:52 am
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Name: Susan
Age: 29
Country: Pennsylvania, USA
When did you first begin using meth?: January 2002
When did you quit using meth?: April 2004 (but became a raging alcoholic 6 months later)
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: Rage, weight loss, deep depression, friends who were up to no good, debt, alcoholism
What triggers you?: When I have a lot to do...when I practice on my turntables and lose interest
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: Yes, I regularly attend NA meetings and was just discharged from a rehab about 4 weeks ago for alcoholism and addiction.
Who do you mainly go to for support?: My mom
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: Oddly enough, even though I did meth everyday, I don't remember going through a bad detox period. I just quit. I cut myself off from the circle of friends who I could meth and other drugs from but it ripped a huge hole in my life. I had very few friends outside my meth circle and then I started a new job where I traveled every week Monday through Friday. I totally lost touch with any kind of social life. That's when I started buying a bottle of vodka on Friday nights on my way home from the airport and drink myself into a black out. I knew I had just substituted one drug for another but when I went into rehab two months ago, I talked about my meth addiciton and how I never truly recovered from it. Rehab, NA, intensive outpatient, the God of my understanding, and my support group of friends and family have helped me make this my 58th day sober (:
I'd post a pic but I don't have any recent ones that I'm not drunk in....maybe not visibly but I know I was and I'd rather not share. I'll have to get some new ones...lol...
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| Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
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2:54 pm - Hi
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Name (First Only.): Karen
Age: 38
Country: USA
When did you first begin using meth?: 19 years ago
When did you quit using meth?: 64 days ago
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: muscle tension, tooth problems, lost custody of my son (age 6), pawned anything I could get at least $20 for, divorce, felony identity theft charges, drug court, jail, to name a few.
What triggers you?: gaining weight, boredom, some music, clubs, my boyfriend using.
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: Yes, I'm in drug court and just completed 28-day inpatient treatment. Am currently in intensive outpatient treatment and attend 5 AA/NA meetings per week.
Who do you mainly go to for support?: Meetings, and my IOP group.
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: Physically I slept a lot! I've been having cravings lately, what keeps me clean so far is meetings, and remembering that I go straight to jail if I use again. I get UA'd three times per week and that has helped too.
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| Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
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12:20 am - My friend Natalie....
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The following is reposted from my MySpace account:
Hi! Natalie has given me permission to share her story and I felt this was a good place to do that. Natalie is accused of driving drunk in a crash that killed her best friend, Joshua Chavez. On the 21st of February she will be sentenced for the charge of vehicular homicide while under the influence. She has decided to plead guilty.
Natalie and Chavez were returning from a party Oct. 9 when she rounded a bend and hit a tree. Chavez died at the scene. Natalie was unconcious for 3 days before she found out that her friend was dead. She didn't remember the crash. She was devistated by the news of what happened. She finally found out in December through a meeting with her attourney and the DA what all had happened. She was shown pictures of the accident at this meeting which will haunt her for the rest of her life. Natalie truely realizes the gravity of her actions that night and will be living with it for the rest of her life. Natalie plans on sharing her story with other people in hopes of helping others to understand what can happen when they drink and drive, and the devistation alcoholism can cause.
She is going to be going to prison for 3-5 years. I will be managing and updating her myspace account while she is away. She has asked me to post her letters to her blog on myspace and I will be. Also, I will be sending her letters from people who would like to write her or who respond to her blog posts. She would really like to have some penpals and to build a better support system. If you are interested in being her penpal, reading about her life on the inside, being a part of her support system, or whatever... you can go to the following links:
Her group:
FRIENDS OF NATALIE
CLICK HERE to get to Natalie's Blog
Add her as your friend?
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If you have any questions, concerns, or issues, please feel free to message me.
NATALIES SENTENCE...
I'm not sure where to start or what to say. Lets start off with this, Natalie was sentenced to 60 months (thats 5 years) in Purdy. I don't think I've felt this shitty since my friend Craig died in 1998. Seeing someone I am so close to and such good friends with go thru such an intense thing is almost indescrible!
I met up with Natalie and her BF around noon in downtown Olympia. I was actually suppose to meet her at the courthouse house but she just happened to be having lunch with her BF downtown and Ric and I were on on way to catch the bus to meet her when we ran into her. So, we rode up to the courthouse with them. Natalie was doing her tough little cookie thing and being a little sarcastic on the way there. But when we first met up I could see it in her face... she was sad and scared. We got to the courthouse and met up with her sponsor and her mother. Her sponsor took some pictures of Natalie and some of Nat and her BF, and some of Nat and me... and it seem so surreal... like she was just going on a trip or something ya know. So we went inside after smoking to wait for afternoon court to start up. It was about 12:45 and court didn't start back up till 1:30. We all sat around on the benches outside the room bullshitting and waiting. While we were sitting there one of her sisters showed up. A little before 1:30 Natalies attourney gets her and they go talk for a few, then court started and we all went in. It was a little tense in there... not sure if it was just me or if that was just the general nature of the room at the time. Chavez's family wasn't there yet. There were a couple of inmates up for sentencing before Natalie and I wondered what she was feeling. I wondered if she was wishing that they would just hurry the fuck up or if she wished time would go slower. I tryed to listen to the other cases before hers... not sure why, maybe I was trying to distract my self a little. I knew things were going to get heavy, I just didn't know how heavy. During the sentencing of the second inmate, Chavez's family came into to the courtroom. I didn't even have to turn around and look to know who they were... I could feel it. When they came in the whole dynamic of the room changed and was way more intense. They finally got to Natalies case and called her up. The Judge told her she was being charged with Vechicular Homicide while Driving Under the Influence and asked her if she understood that and if her attourney had explained it to her, she said yes. He asked her if she was changing her plea to guilty and she said yes. He asked her if anyone had threaten or promised her anything to get her to change her plea, she said no. Her attourney gave the judge some letters from her counselors and friends and he took time to review them. Afterwards he talked a little bit about the letters and then asked the district attourney to read the case. He read about what lead up to the accident and the accident. He talked about the acccident scene briefly and how Natalie was unconcious when the police and fire and rescue arrived. He talked about her blood alcohol content. Then he asked the courts permission for Chavez's family to come up and speak. The family came up with a collage of pictures of Chavez, which they displayed for the court, and his mother addressed the court. She had about 4 or 5 pages of what I believe was a letter that she began to read. She talked about the morning it all happened and how she recieved a phone call at 2:30am that her son had been in an accident. She talked about the thoughts that went through her head and how she drove to the accident and was stopped by an officer on the scene. She told the officer that she was the mother of one of the people in the accident and wanted to know how her son was. The officer told her that they were still trying to get him out of the car. By this time Natalie was visibly sobing. His mother continued read about how she waited there, waiting for news of her son for what seemed an eternity. Finally 3 people came walking up to her car, one of them a chaplin, she knew at that point that her son was dead. She talked about going home and telling her family and how devistated they were. She went into great detail about how he died after this listing off every injury and broken bone. She told Natalie that Natalie had murdered her son and said that if there were any questions that she could ask her, they would be; "What were you thinking when you drove that night?"and "What were his last words before he died?"... I believe there were a few more but at the moment I can't remember them. I had already been crying alot. She told Natalie that she didn't hate her among a few other things and then the family went and sat to the side of the courtroom while Natalies attourney began to speak. He said some good things about Natalie and talked about the efforts she has been making since the accident and then he told the judge that Natalie would like permission to appologize to Chavez's family. The judge, the DA, and the family agreed to this and Natalie said " I know sorry is very hollow in times like this, but if God came down from heaven right now and gave me a choice, I would trade places with Chavez in a heartbeat so he could be alive instead of me." She was crying so hard, I don't think she could speak anymore. The judge then spoke and he was having a hard time, this was all so very emotional... for everyone. He suggested to Natalie that she use this expirence to help other people and to help prevent more Chavez's. He told her that this wasn't the first case that he had ruled over with this charge in the last week... and that he wasn't going to treat her any differently than he had treated anyone else. He then gave her a sentence of 36 months plus her additional 24... the extra 24 is because she had a previous DUI from when she was 18. He told her what her fines were and then they put the handcuffs on her. I waited to talk to her and the last thing I said to her was "I love you!" I left and cryed. It was really awful and a very hard thing to see.
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| Monday, February 6th, 2006
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Name (First Only.): Sarah (just a note about my username: I am a dancer, I love Elton John's song "Tiny Dancer" and 4-20 is my b-day-didn't want anyone to get the wrong idea.)
Age: 22
Country: USA
When did you first begin using meth?: 17
When did you quit using meth?: 19
What were the negative effects of meth for you?: everything-I became a totally different person. I stole from everyone and was paranoid all the time.
What triggers you?: Weight gain, feeling out of control, being bored, not going to meetings
Are you currently in NA (Narcotics Annonymous) or any other form of drug councelling? If so, please explain: In the community where I live A.A. is much stronger than N.A. I go to about 1-2 meetings a week.
Who do you mainly go to for support?: I have built (and been blessed with) a solid group of friends that I use in good times and bad.
How did you cope with detox (in or out of rehab) and what helped/still helps you through?: I went to treatment (for the 2nd time) 3 yrs ago. My counselor was a huge support. He taught me about accountablity and being honest.
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| Saturday, November 26th, 2005
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Hi all, I hope this entry is okay, if not, please feel free to delete it.
I'm not a meth user, I've never even experimented with it. My boyfriend, however, has moved to a new city and has started to "dabble" in it (or so he says). He's used it every weekend for the past month and I'm starting to worry.
I guess what I wanted to know from you all is how I can be the best support to him without nagging or causing him to distance himself from me. I want to help him and support him, but I don't know how. Especially since he doesn't even think he has a problem (and maybe he doesn't...yet, but he's headed that way).
What are some of the greatest ways that people have been supportive to you all during your time of acceptance and recognition?
Any other advice/comments/etc are more than welcome! I wish you all the best of luck, I admire the strength this sort of thing takes!
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